Today was the day to be proud of all the things I've accomplished in my life thusfar. It can be easy to fret over all the things I have yet to achieve or do or be, and to forget just how far I've come. Some random things from my list, that I am proud to say today, and that not everyone can claim:
I was able to to get it together and move out of state on my own and make it.
I was able to travel to Europe not once but twice, and I'm ready for the third trip!
I have my own place, my own car, my own job, and am my own person.
I have loved and lost but still believe in True Love.
I graduated college. First in the family to do so.
I have gotten to meet some incredible people who have changed my life.
I wrote my first novel. And am working on the next two in its series.
I have saved a life.
I have taken risks and chances and leaps of faith and I hope someday to say I have no regrets.
Song of the day: Drake f/ Nicki Minaj "I'm So Proud of You"
Friday, March 16, 2012
Thursday, March 15, 2012
DAY THIRTY
I am not yet 30. But when I do reach that age there are a few things I want to have done/achieved more than anything else in the world. Firstly, I want to have fallen (and stayed!) in wonderful, crazy, happy, head-over-heels love. Secondly, I want to have traveled to Ireland. Thirdly, I want to have finished at least two more novels and my first graphic novel (I have begun writing them already!). And lastly, I want to be as excited and overjoyed to be alive as I ever have been. Knowing these goals and keeping them in mind will be a great inspiration to keep striving for making the most of my day every day. It's also making me super inspired for my next two 100-day challenges of the year and what I will be manifesting in those!
Now recently, as you know, I got a job. However, I was given a counter-offer by my current job to not only stay but possibly be promoted. The last two days have been a huge struggle for me emotionally and mentally. I have agonized over the decision for hours on end, and discussed it heavily with my family. This is one of the hardest decisions I've ever had to make, but I have finally decided to stay with the new job. I believe that it manifested in my life for a reason and I might be meant to have it for a greater purpose. I can only pray that I am making the right decision. It was very difficult because I like to please others and am very loyal to my word, so when I give my word I mean it, but I will be reliable, too. Instead of focusing on what others wanted I really tried to hear out my own heart and what it was telling me would be better for me, not for anyone else.
Again, as always, only time will tell.
The first 30 days have gone by in a flash!
Song of the day: The Corrs "Erin Shore"
Now recently, as you know, I got a job. However, I was given a counter-offer by my current job to not only stay but possibly be promoted. The last two days have been a huge struggle for me emotionally and mentally. I have agonized over the decision for hours on end, and discussed it heavily with my family. This is one of the hardest decisions I've ever had to make, but I have finally decided to stay with the new job. I believe that it manifested in my life for a reason and I might be meant to have it for a greater purpose. I can only pray that I am making the right decision. It was very difficult because I like to please others and am very loyal to my word, so when I give my word I mean it, but I will be reliable, too. Instead of focusing on what others wanted I really tried to hear out my own heart and what it was telling me would be better for me, not for anyone else.
Again, as always, only time will tell.
The first 30 days have gone by in a flash!
Song of the day: The Corrs "Erin Shore"
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
DAY TWENTY-NINE
We don't have control over everything that happens to us and in the world around us. That doesn't mean we can't change it for the better. As co-creators, we are able to shift our expectations and be more at peace about what is going on in our lives. There is no such thing as perfect, but there are still dreams that come true, wishes that are granted, and abundance that is received every single day. I want to tap into that. Today is about accepting and reaching for abundance of all positive things.
I took action by starting an early morning workout regime today, and getting a head start on my day feels great. I am also taking action with my new job and hoping that it continues to be a good choice for me.
I am approaching the world with positivity today. And I am open to all the love, prosperity, knowledge, and joy that the universe is sending back to me today.
Song of the Day: Angels & Airwaves "The Adventure"
I took action by starting an early morning workout regime today, and getting a head start on my day feels great. I am also taking action with my new job and hoping that it continues to be a good choice for me.
I am approaching the world with positivity today. And I am open to all the love, prosperity, knowledge, and joy that the universe is sending back to me today.
Song of the Day: Angels & Airwaves "The Adventure"
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
DAYS 18-28
March 3 DAY 18
"There are three types of people: those that make something happen, those that watch things happen, and those that wonder what happened." Inspired by my co-creator, I decided to make something happen. Sadly, I do not remember what it was! I am not kidding! I've been journaling daily and blogging when I can, but my room is still a mess and I cannot find what I wrote on March 3rd! So I am making it a priority to clean my room. Sounds silly, but I prefer my floor to my clothes hamper for some reason. :)
Song of the day: Muse "Undisclosed Desires"
March 4 DAY 19
Simple joys. Today was the day to embrace my inner child. To choose to laugh, play, and see the world innocently as I did when I was a child was my goal. Busted out the cheesy poofs (pirate's booty, actually, yum!) and my Harry Potter coloring book and watched some old classic cartoons. Sometimes reliving those old Saturday mornings when I was 5 is just the thing I need to feel humble and get real again.
Song of the day: "Truly Outrageous" Jem
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=20BZID081Vk
March 5 DAY 20
"To live happily is an inward power of the soul." -Aristotle
My soul has the power over how I feel. No matter what may be happening in the world around me (sad news, disasters, tragedy) I must keep the joy and light I have burning brightly within me. Some days are inevitably harder than others, but I can thankfully say that I have always lived with faith and with a strong family unit around me. Today I finally got one of the things I have been trying to manifest: a new job! I was called with the job offer only 5 minutes after I typed up a physical representation of what I wanted to happen! (A notice of resignation letter). I am ready for the hard work and the journey ahead so that I can provide for myself and build a better life and start getting out of debt, less stressed about money, and more stable in my career. Yay!
Song of the day: James Brown "Papa's Got A Brand New Bag"
March 6 DAY 21
Challenged by my co-creator! 21 days to form a habit- she asked what habits have I formed and what do I wish to form for the next 21 days, by day 42? Excellent! I answered that I have been eating healthier and more organically, I have been doing daily meditation, and I have been communicating with her in some form daily whereas we usually only speak once a week or so or sometimes further apart (shame on me, right?!) and it's been such a great thing to have her doing this with me, encouraging me and journeying beside me. She is truly a friend soulmate for me.
Song of the day: Linkin Park "Breaking the Habit"
March 7 DAY 22
First of the next 21 days! To answer the 2nd part of her challenge: I want to be in the habit of moving my body daily. I want to live a more active lifestyle. Sometimes when I get home from work I am so tired I don't want to workout. So I'm taking a cue from my brilliant and dedicated and very healthy sister and beginning to get up early in the mornings with her and working out before the day even begins! That way, I can continue burning calories even more efficiently throughout the day and cannot use the "I'm too tired after work" excuse any more. But now this night owl has to learn how to get up early.... ugh!
Song of the day: Missy Elliott "Work It"
March 8 DAY 23
Living "unplugged"? It was my first day at my new job and I left my cellphone at home! The agony! Unable to check facebook or my clock or my horoscope, email, random movie reviews... all day??? It was a refreshing change, actually. I was mostly worried my car would break down and I'd be stranded, but it all turned out. How did I ever live without a cell? But then I reviewed a little of what I learned: living away from EMFs for awhile is healthy. So even for just an hour a day, getting out of doors and leaving all the electronics behind can help detoxify and ground you. Who knew?
The only song was the crickets. Unplugged, remember?
March 9 DAY 24
Git'er done! Dared to check a few things off my to-do list, I got through a bunch of it! It was refreshing and inexpected and it felt like a weight lifted off my shoulders. It took a few hours, and then I was left wondering why I'd put it all off in the first place. The perfectionist in me is always procrasinating! www.flylady.net
Song of the day: Kate Nash "Pumpkin Soup"
March 10 DAY 25
ONE QUARTER! My co-creator and I have an inside-secret-sisterhood thing. I have a loversoulmate. I have not met him yet. I also have a bestfriendsoulmate. I have her in my life! You often hear "Two halves of a whole" but we both knew if we were whole, there'd be no room for our lovely men. So we are two quarters of the same half. Someday the other 50 cents will show up and we will be 100%! So in honor of our friendship, I made my friend a special surprise! I hope she likes it.
Song of the day: Tevin Campbell "I2I"
March 11 DAY 26
Rocked out to 311 on 3/11! Music heals the soul. Pretended to plan a roadtrip beach vacation and soaked up the sun. Worked hard and drove home with the windows rolled down and the beats blasting. Nothing gives me good ideas like the drive home. Feeling inspired and good.
Song of the day: 311 "Come Original"
March 12 DAY 27
1st of 3 wishes. I think 3 wishes are in order. Not just for ponies and princes, but for real, tangible, specific manifestations that are miniature pieces of my big SERENITY challenge. But I can't tell my first wish or it won't come true! Sorry!
Song of the day: "A Dream is a wish your heart makes" Disney's Snow White
March 13 DAY 28
Using the power within to attract change sounds really simple. And ultimately it is. But the higest breakthrough happened to me today. I realized that all this time I've spent trying to manifest SERENITY... I didn't realize the real reason why I wanted to simplify my life... until NOW. It wasn't about that I wanted too much and had too much around me and was distracted and forgetful and stressed. All this is true, however, the real reason I wanted to manifest SERENITY is because I do not know what I want. Lilou says you really need to know what you want in order to make a powerful declaration to the universe that THIS IS WHAT I WANT. But the trouble is, I had no plan for my future. I had no idea what i might do or be or really try to achieve. I think I do now. At least, I am one step closer to knowing specifically, exactly what I want, and I believe this is a manifestation coming from this challenge. The universe really does work in mysterious ways. By the end of this challenge, I will know exactly what to declare. I will be sure what it is I want in life. This is a huge and really soul-searching step for me, but I think it's time.
Song of the day: Matt & Kim "Daylight"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WgBeu3FVi60 Best.Video.Ever!
"There are three types of people: those that make something happen, those that watch things happen, and those that wonder what happened." Inspired by my co-creator, I decided to make something happen. Sadly, I do not remember what it was! I am not kidding! I've been journaling daily and blogging when I can, but my room is still a mess and I cannot find what I wrote on March 3rd! So I am making it a priority to clean my room. Sounds silly, but I prefer my floor to my clothes hamper for some reason. :)
Song of the day: Muse "Undisclosed Desires"
March 4 DAY 19
Simple joys. Today was the day to embrace my inner child. To choose to laugh, play, and see the world innocently as I did when I was a child was my goal. Busted out the cheesy poofs (pirate's booty, actually, yum!) and my Harry Potter coloring book and watched some old classic cartoons. Sometimes reliving those old Saturday mornings when I was 5 is just the thing I need to feel humble and get real again.
Song of the day: "Truly Outrageous" Jem
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=20BZID081Vk
March 5 DAY 20
"To live happily is an inward power of the soul." -Aristotle
My soul has the power over how I feel. No matter what may be happening in the world around me (sad news, disasters, tragedy) I must keep the joy and light I have burning brightly within me. Some days are inevitably harder than others, but I can thankfully say that I have always lived with faith and with a strong family unit around me. Today I finally got one of the things I have been trying to manifest: a new job! I was called with the job offer only 5 minutes after I typed up a physical representation of what I wanted to happen! (A notice of resignation letter). I am ready for the hard work and the journey ahead so that I can provide for myself and build a better life and start getting out of debt, less stressed about money, and more stable in my career. Yay!
Song of the day: James Brown "Papa's Got A Brand New Bag"
March 6 DAY 21
Challenged by my co-creator! 21 days to form a habit- she asked what habits have I formed and what do I wish to form for the next 21 days, by day 42? Excellent! I answered that I have been eating healthier and more organically, I have been doing daily meditation, and I have been communicating with her in some form daily whereas we usually only speak once a week or so or sometimes further apart (shame on me, right?!) and it's been such a great thing to have her doing this with me, encouraging me and journeying beside me. She is truly a friend soulmate for me.
Song of the day: Linkin Park "Breaking the Habit"
March 7 DAY 22
First of the next 21 days! To answer the 2nd part of her challenge: I want to be in the habit of moving my body daily. I want to live a more active lifestyle. Sometimes when I get home from work I am so tired I don't want to workout. So I'm taking a cue from my brilliant and dedicated and very healthy sister and beginning to get up early in the mornings with her and working out before the day even begins! That way, I can continue burning calories even more efficiently throughout the day and cannot use the "I'm too tired after work" excuse any more. But now this night owl has to learn how to get up early.... ugh!
Song of the day: Missy Elliott "Work It"
March 8 DAY 23
Living "unplugged"? It was my first day at my new job and I left my cellphone at home! The agony! Unable to check facebook or my clock or my horoscope, email, random movie reviews... all day??? It was a refreshing change, actually. I was mostly worried my car would break down and I'd be stranded, but it all turned out. How did I ever live without a cell? But then I reviewed a little of what I learned: living away from EMFs for awhile is healthy. So even for just an hour a day, getting out of doors and leaving all the electronics behind can help detoxify and ground you. Who knew?
The only song was the crickets. Unplugged, remember?
March 9 DAY 24
Git'er done! Dared to check a few things off my to-do list, I got through a bunch of it! It was refreshing and inexpected and it felt like a weight lifted off my shoulders. It took a few hours, and then I was left wondering why I'd put it all off in the first place. The perfectionist in me is always procrasinating! www.flylady.net
Song of the day: Kate Nash "Pumpkin Soup"
March 10 DAY 25
ONE QUARTER! My co-creator and I have an inside-secret-sisterhood thing. I have a loversoulmate. I have not met him yet. I also have a bestfriendsoulmate. I have her in my life! You often hear "Two halves of a whole" but we both knew if we were whole, there'd be no room for our lovely men. So we are two quarters of the same half. Someday the other 50 cents will show up and we will be 100%! So in honor of our friendship, I made my friend a special surprise! I hope she likes it.
Song of the day: Tevin Campbell "I2I"
March 11 DAY 26
Rocked out to 311 on 3/11! Music heals the soul. Pretended to plan a roadtrip beach vacation and soaked up the sun. Worked hard and drove home with the windows rolled down and the beats blasting. Nothing gives me good ideas like the drive home. Feeling inspired and good.
Song of the day: 311 "Come Original"
March 12 DAY 27
1st of 3 wishes. I think 3 wishes are in order. Not just for ponies and princes, but for real, tangible, specific manifestations that are miniature pieces of my big SERENITY challenge. But I can't tell my first wish or it won't come true! Sorry!
Song of the day: "A Dream is a wish your heart makes" Disney's Snow White
March 13 DAY 28
Using the power within to attract change sounds really simple. And ultimately it is. But the higest breakthrough happened to me today. I realized that all this time I've spent trying to manifest SERENITY... I didn't realize the real reason why I wanted to simplify my life... until NOW. It wasn't about that I wanted too much and had too much around me and was distracted and forgetful and stressed. All this is true, however, the real reason I wanted to manifest SERENITY is because I do not know what I want. Lilou says you really need to know what you want in order to make a powerful declaration to the universe that THIS IS WHAT I WANT. But the trouble is, I had no plan for my future. I had no idea what i might do or be or really try to achieve. I think I do now. At least, I am one step closer to knowing specifically, exactly what I want, and I believe this is a manifestation coming from this challenge. The universe really does work in mysterious ways. By the end of this challenge, I will know exactly what to declare. I will be sure what it is I want in life. This is a huge and really soul-searching step for me, but I think it's time.
Song of the day: Matt & Kim "Daylight"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WgBeu3FVi60 Best.Video.Ever!
Friday, March 2, 2012
DAYS 11-17
No blogs for a week! How dare I!
DAY 11- day of the auspicious. I decided not to leave luck to chance but make it for myself by sending extra focus on my intention of SERENITY.
"A working definition for intention is: “to have in mind a purpose or plan, to direct the mind, to aim.” Lacking intention, we sometimes stray without meaning or direction. But with it, all the forces of the universe can align to make even the most impossible, possible." -healing.about.com
I know I've said it before. My purpose in these 100 days is to bring balance and serenity to my crazy, chaotic, stressed-out life. I want to live, breathe, and be surrounded by peacefulness and health. The direction in this path has been a bit wibbly-wobbly. I know at this point it had only been 11 days. But the struggles are abundant. My own inner critic, or ego, if you will, always makes it harder than it actually is to reach a goal. I CAN DO THIS! This, here, right now, this journey, is me already succeeding. The fact that I am getting out there and trying speaks volumes. I cannot let the negative self-talk win. I am already co-creating a beautiful life.
DAY 12- making it count. 12 was the number of Jesus's apostles. I really focused on prayer today, on my blessings, on forgiveness for myself and others; just really feeling centered.
"The twelve disciples/apostles were ordinary men whom God used in an extraordinary manner. Among the twelve were fishermen, a tax collector, and a revolutionary. The Gospels record the constant failings, struggles, and doubts of these twelve men who followed Jesus Christ. After witnessing Jesus' resurrection and ascension into heaven, the Holy Spirit transformed the disciples/apostles into powerful men of God who turned the world upside down (Acts 17:6). What was the change? The twelve apostles/disciples had “been with Jesus” (Acts 4:13). May the same be said of us!" -gotquestions.org
DAY13- lucky 13. I put a smile on a stranger's face as a dare to myself. I high-fived a girl whom I thought had awesome eyeshadow on. I hope I brought a little sunshine to her day. Seeing her reaction to my random niceness really felt good, too. Then I decided to put into action something I'd been putting off: I cleaned both my bathrooms! And I mean, totally emptied out, scrubbed top to bottom, and re-decorated. I was exhausted after but I also felt like a million bucks.
DAY 14- reverence for the body. Our bodies are on loan from God. I don't always treat my physical shell with the respect it deserves. I look down on it and judge it more times in a day than I can count. So today I tried my best to ignore those pesky negative thoughts and really just tried to be grateful for it. I did a beautiful sun salutation routine and fed it yummy and healthy things and just tried to be amazed that I have all my parts and they all work and not everyone can say that. I am very fortunate and I need to stop taking my body for granted.
DAY 15- Leap Day! To take a leap forward in my SERENITY 100 day challenge, I worked on my vision book, I practiced some lovely new guided meditations, and shared my journey with a few friends. Telling them about the 100 day challenge felt exhilarating. It's not as if I was keeping it a secret, but I hadn't really shared it with anyone besides my best friend and immediate family. But here I was, blathering on about affirmations and co-creating like I'd been doing it for years. Hopefully I inspired someone!
DAY 16-sweet 16. "After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music." -Aldous Huxley. I challenged myself and my friend to create a 100 day challenge playlist. Here's mine (still in progress- I will DEFINITELY be adding more as I go along)!
1. Len "If you steal my sunshine"
2. Alan Silvestri "Just an oasis"
3. Camille Saint-Saens "Carnival of the animals"
4. Rebecca St.James "Lion"
5. The JaneDear Girls "Wildflower"
6. Hans Zimmer "You're So Cool"
7. Delicious Digital "Down the Rabbit Hole"
8. Beirut "Elephant Gun"
9. Razorlight "Hold on"
10. Steve Jablonsky "My Name is Lincoln"
11. Coldplay "Charlie Brown"
12. Coldplay "Paradise"
13. Grouplove "Tongue Tied"
14. Bob Marley "Could you be loved"
...to be continued :)...
DAY 17- Today! Releasing the artist within. I was challenged by my beautiful friend and co-creator to begin an art piece that I will complete by the end of my challenge. What a gorgeous idea! With life spinning sideways, art is always one thing that seems to inexplicably hold me down and keep me sane. I haven't drawn or painted (besides random doodles) in weeks. It was something refreshing that I promise I will be sharing my progress on. Super inspired! Sending love out to the universe and accepting peace, love, tranquility, harmony, and beauty every day. LOVE!
DAY 11- day of the auspicious. I decided not to leave luck to chance but make it for myself by sending extra focus on my intention of SERENITY.
"A working definition for intention is: “to have in mind a purpose or plan, to direct the mind, to aim.” Lacking intention, we sometimes stray without meaning or direction. But with it, all the forces of the universe can align to make even the most impossible, possible." -healing.about.com
I know I've said it before. My purpose in these 100 days is to bring balance and serenity to my crazy, chaotic, stressed-out life. I want to live, breathe, and be surrounded by peacefulness and health. The direction in this path has been a bit wibbly-wobbly. I know at this point it had only been 11 days. But the struggles are abundant. My own inner critic, or ego, if you will, always makes it harder than it actually is to reach a goal. I CAN DO THIS! This, here, right now, this journey, is me already succeeding. The fact that I am getting out there and trying speaks volumes. I cannot let the negative self-talk win. I am already co-creating a beautiful life.
DAY 12- making it count. 12 was the number of Jesus's apostles. I really focused on prayer today, on my blessings, on forgiveness for myself and others; just really feeling centered.
"The twelve disciples/apostles were ordinary men whom God used in an extraordinary manner. Among the twelve were fishermen, a tax collector, and a revolutionary. The Gospels record the constant failings, struggles, and doubts of these twelve men who followed Jesus Christ. After witnessing Jesus' resurrection and ascension into heaven, the Holy Spirit transformed the disciples/apostles into powerful men of God who turned the world upside down (Acts 17:6). What was the change? The twelve apostles/disciples had “been with Jesus” (Acts 4:13). May the same be said of us!" -gotquestions.org
DAY13- lucky 13. I put a smile on a stranger's face as a dare to myself. I high-fived a girl whom I thought had awesome eyeshadow on. I hope I brought a little sunshine to her day. Seeing her reaction to my random niceness really felt good, too. Then I decided to put into action something I'd been putting off: I cleaned both my bathrooms! And I mean, totally emptied out, scrubbed top to bottom, and re-decorated. I was exhausted after but I also felt like a million bucks.
DAY 14- reverence for the body. Our bodies are on loan from God. I don't always treat my physical shell with the respect it deserves. I look down on it and judge it more times in a day than I can count. So today I tried my best to ignore those pesky negative thoughts and really just tried to be grateful for it. I did a beautiful sun salutation routine and fed it yummy and healthy things and just tried to be amazed that I have all my parts and they all work and not everyone can say that. I am very fortunate and I need to stop taking my body for granted.
DAY 15- Leap Day! To take a leap forward in my SERENITY 100 day challenge, I worked on my vision book, I practiced some lovely new guided meditations, and shared my journey with a few friends. Telling them about the 100 day challenge felt exhilarating. It's not as if I was keeping it a secret, but I hadn't really shared it with anyone besides my best friend and immediate family. But here I was, blathering on about affirmations and co-creating like I'd been doing it for years. Hopefully I inspired someone!
DAY 16-sweet 16. "After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music." -Aldous Huxley. I challenged myself and my friend to create a 100 day challenge playlist. Here's mine (still in progress- I will DEFINITELY be adding more as I go along)!
1. Len "If you steal my sunshine"
2. Alan Silvestri "Just an oasis"
3. Camille Saint-Saens "Carnival of the animals"
4. Rebecca St.James "Lion"
5. The JaneDear Girls "Wildflower"
6. Hans Zimmer "You're So Cool"
7. Delicious Digital "Down the Rabbit Hole"
8. Beirut "Elephant Gun"
9. Razorlight "Hold on"
10. Steve Jablonsky "My Name is Lincoln"
11. Coldplay "Charlie Brown"
12. Coldplay "Paradise"
13. Grouplove "Tongue Tied"
14. Bob Marley "Could you be loved"
...to be continued :)...
DAY 17- Today! Releasing the artist within. I was challenged by my beautiful friend and co-creator to begin an art piece that I will complete by the end of my challenge. What a gorgeous idea! With life spinning sideways, art is always one thing that seems to inexplicably hold me down and keep me sane. I haven't drawn or painted (besides random doodles) in weeks. It was something refreshing that I promise I will be sharing my progress on. Super inspired! Sending love out to the universe and accepting peace, love, tranquility, harmony, and beauty every day. LOVE!
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